Echoes of the Non-guilty

Years ‘ve come and gone

Anticipation and anxiety tends to be more interesting than reality

Thirst seem to be more fulfilling than the taste of water

Abstinence which was preached as fundamental for purity seems to be my curse

Loving you was easy but impossibility is an understatement for letting you go

Taking you to the altar was one of the most fulfilling dreams I had

Bed undefiled, temple nurtured whole

Yet, my appetite couldn’t be appeased despite being just a little above average

This marriage is my prison room

And the locks are never to be found

Yes! You are a career woman and the very best at what you do

But why am I condemned to coldness?

You wouldn’t stretch beyond what feels right to you

And the greatest agony is you don’t even know the depth to which you are subjecting me to pain

If only I could love again, I would try

But, I don’t have the magic card to give

Maybe breaking my marital vows isn’t so difficult

Maybe finding pleasure here and there isn’t that hard

Maybe concentrating on my happiness is an easy way out

But the fact still remains…

I will never fall in love again, not in this lifetime

Your love give more pain than poison

And you have no idea how lonely a married man is

I hate loving you this much but I can’t help myself

Sweetheart, may you not be unfortunate to love this much

The pain creeps in slowly but excruciating

My only wedded wife, how I wish this friendship never led to marriage.